*sigh* hey guys. I'm sorry that I don't write journals all that much, and now I'm writing one that seems to be crying out, "Pity me!!!", it's not meant to. This year is going by so much faster than any other year of schooling I've had. I wish it went much slower. sadly, the phrase "time flies when you're having fun" doesn't apply. this year had a pretty rocky start, for various reasons. lately, i feel like a ghost, or dead or something. it feels like I'm trapped in a clear box that causes invisibility, and everyone else doesn't notice or see me gone. I keep trying to scream and get involved, but the box is evidently soundproof. I'm not blaming anyone, or saying that they've done anything bad, I'm just saying what it feels like over here, being me at the moment. it's like i'm not even visible, or that I'm see through. my friend c, (earlier f) when she and I got redistricted, thought that we were going to be better friends. how wrong was that. c almost immediately got a whole lot of new friends, almost a posse and i became invisible to her. i'm sorry, c is a great person, I just feel forgotten with her, unless something's up with me that she wants to know, or help with; she's a really nice and outgoing person. and then this year my friend e (earlier mentioned as h) did the exact same thing, only i'm not QUITE as see through with him. still pretty transparent. my friends t and d and i are pretty close, but t and d seem to be one unit of really good friends, and i feel like the third wheel alot. this is pretty understandable b/c t and d have a lot of classes together, with me not in them. i'm sorry if this is sounding really bratty, or like i'm throwing a pity party; i don't mean to. I just feel pretty darn cruddy right now...

*i'm really sorry if anybody was/is offended, this is me expressing my feelings right now,
and i'm sorry if this did anything else bad....